i wish i could hide it.
to stop time,
go back to the very beginning.
never knew what was what.

i thought
i saw the rain cry,
heard the meadows breeze by,
felt the dandelions slide through,
smell the tears of a river,
and taste the bitter ending.

what if i never learnt badminton?
what if i never went to saint nicks?
what if i never joined SBA?
what if i never came to raffles?
what if i never ... ...?

have you ever felt that no matter
how loud you shout or cry,
nobody could hear you.
no one could hear your deepest cry.
i do.
socializing can no longer fill this.
this emptiness i feel.
like an empty barrel tonight.




/ the edge of falling of the cliff,
and no one below to catch me.
(and everything is about to change)